All in Life Path

Break Your Patterns...

I just sometimes think we need to shock our systems, jolt our brains out of their comfy human paths which we all amble along everyday. Sometimes this can be by hearing something different, reading something different, trying to comprehend a person totally different to you. Go watch a Sci Fi film even if you hate it etc etc. I believe pushing out of those - to use a cliche - "comfort zones" can improve our creative and empathetic brains and help us to be better people.

What is your Story... This is Mine...

Every person you come across is living a completely different life, hearing something deeper or more shallow, seeing something you see from an alternate angle. We are moving stories and we live through these tiny little moments of earlier chapters that have built up to become a powerful wave in our psyches, in our memories, in the way that we digest the world around us. And not just past chapters but present emotions and how tired we are, and how stressed and how happy and how sad. Then we make decisions and it rolls on and on and on.

I'm afraid that I am actually a shit writer who will never write anything of substance or that anyone reads

I'm afraid that I'll always be someone who said they were going to do something great, but never got off their fucking arse and did it

I'm scared that I will never let myself be in love or near it or close to it and I'll end up alone, with no one, pasting a smiley face on it

I'm scared that sometimes I use things like alcohol or buying stuff to quieten down my neurosis and my spinning mind.

Afraid that really I'm quite selfish and self obsessed

Have you ever had one of those days that pricks you, pinches you, pokes you around; life's not slapping you in the face, it's just cruelly teasing you like a small child would another, pushing your boundaries until you feel like crumbling up into the foetus position and weeping with the fatigue of it. I just had one of those days/24 hours and I hated it. I hated it mostly because my usual mantra is to rise above the angst and the first world problems and the stupid day-to-day shit. I like to play the part of positive and enthused even when I don't feel that even a little bit.