All in London

Moments of Joy: Love Always Wins & All The Books

Joy is hard to find in a week which began with a convicted rapist getting a three-month sentence and ended with tragedy... and that's without everything terrible in-between. It is in moments like this that I turn to books. We should all turn to books, to educate ourselves on experiences we haven't had, to comfort us, to increase our belief in love and the beauty of life.

Moments of Joy: Stupid Things and Becoming Stronger

I sat down in a cafe last week and wrote a list of things about myself that I'm confident of and others I still need help with - just for me -  and I'm proud that I can now write things in the former category. And I did some stupid things in the last fortnight too, but I didn't hate myself as much for them, because we are all human and we can't be fucking perfect all the time. One step at a time and realising that is SUCH A JOY. Here are my others for the last fortnight (oops)...

Moments of Joy Monday: A BBQ, Jam Session and Conversation

I went on holiday on my own for the first time ever and I relished every moment of it. I loved taking afternoon naps, eating supper late with a great book, staying up all night staring at the clear Thailand sky on the night of the New Moon. I loved not having to answer to anyone else for a while.

However, on my return I was itching for conversations with my nearest and dearest. That is what I missed most of all, the comfy connection of those who know you. I filled my weekend with it.

The thing about London is that she breathes. With each new breath, people are sucked into her feistiness and on the exhale others are cast away. She is highly addictive and beautiful on her good days, when the streets shine with possibility and reward. Pubs and clubs and cafes spilling with her wards, laughing and crying, talking and loving, she makes them feel invincible and alive. On her bad days, she pounds you, throwing into your route every ugly thing you could ever see. There is greyness and sickness and poverty and addiction and sadness and wealth and greed and excess and people, oh so many people, saturated and surly. She offers up to you in her palms every extreme to dine upon. You can have your highest and best times here and other times she squashes you underfoot.